4:18 PM
i moved again. http://mittensgirl.diaryland.com

see you there.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 28, 2006

4:00 PM
did you know brownies are considered a cookie. i've always thought they were considered a cake.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 28, 2006

2:57 PM
okay breaux, i'm back. and i'm sweeter than ever!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 28, 2006

7:33 PM
mittens, how i love you but how your mother is making me CRAZY!

fuck you george bush.

Sunday, Mar. 26, 2006

6:12 PM
can i just mention how awesome my mittens is? i feel so safe and secure with him right now.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Mar. 23, 2006

4:39 PM
last night my friend's sister kept telling me i look like i'm black irish. i'm not really sure what that means, but everything i've looked up says it's something that doesn't exist. does that mean i don't exist?

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Mar. 23, 2006

8:35 AM
i had that dizzy thing happen to me last night. the nurse was going to take blood. i've gotten much better about not having a fit right before it. it doesn't really hurt, i just told her, "i believe our skin is to keep things out," and she agreed. she had a hard time finding the vein. you should see the bruise! and you should see the bruise from when i feel, i mean fell down.

there was a woman walking around asking people about their problems. i suspect she was trying to figure out the order in which people would get treatment. she asked me. i told her, "last time this happened, i was able to make myself not pass out. this time, i couldn't help it." she said, "if you're going to pass out, you're going to pass out." i said, "but-" and she walked off. joe later told me she had on a button that said, "best bedside manner."

i liked my nurse other than that thing with my arm. i asked her if she would "take this thing out of my arm." she said, "i might need to draw more blood. not your arm, your vein." people here are so strange.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Mar. 23, 2006

7:53 PM
i'm going out to dinner with my two professors from maryland tomorrow night. i'm very excited!!!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 21, 2006

6:31 PM
yesterday, when i went in for the cat scan, the best part was when they gave me the paper to mark where the scan was for and i got to draw and X on my head. how was that sentence?

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 21, 2006

9:01 PM
i've never been able to get my computers to network. i think it's something about my laptop. i got rid of my desktop when i moved. it always networked just fine. now, i'm trying to network my laptop and my work laptop and haven't been able to. oh well. i mostly just needed to transfer the settings from my home laptop to my work one.

tomorrow i have a catscan of my head. i'm very scared.

fuck you george bush.

Sunday, Mar. 19, 2006

10:04 AM
i just bought a shed ender for the cats.

fuck you george bush.

Sunday, Mar. 19, 2006

6:48 PM
this weekend i'll be buying new tags for the cats with my new phone number. i'm very excited. hooray!

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Mar. 16, 2006

5:40 PM
ooh, i can't wait for america's next top model tonight!

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Mar. 15, 2006

5:29 PM
appointment with the neurologist on april 13 at 3:00. i wish i had a friend here to go with me. i'm scared.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Mar. 15, 2006

5:15 PM
also, i hate u2.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Mar. 15, 2006

5:14 PM
also, i'd like to be in abba.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Mar. 15, 2006

5:06 PM
i've always wished i was a b-52. i love the way those girls sing.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Mar. 15, 2006

12:12
i love the way jack white looks. i love the way he sings. etc., etc., etc. swoon...

fuck you george bush.

2006-03-14

5:25 PM
so listen to this! i was on the beach saturday. i bought a sandwich and some clam chowder. i ate the clam chowder. it was delicious!!! i opened the sandwich and ate two bites. the bag blew away. i went to chase it. while i was chasing it, a bird swooped down and ATE MY SANDWICH!!! the bag got away which means i also polluted the beach. i hate the idea of having done that. plus, i lost my $6 roast beef sandwich.

now, for more serious stuff. i was at the nursing home yesterday visiting with mittens' grandmother. all of a sudden, i got dizzy. i tried to excuse myself from the room, but i ended up stumbling out into the hall. there was the sound of tv static. i had to find a chair. i was sweating and scared. after two or three minutes it passed. my hearing came back after a while but i felt dizzy and week and sort of confused all day. also, my lips were blue after the whole thing. blue!

i was very worried i'd had a seizure. i called my mom that night and she wanted to me to go to the hospital. i told her i'd go to the doctor. i went today and she thinks i might have had some sort of migraine or maybe a nerve thing. at worst, she thinks it could have been a very small stroke or a blood clot since i'm on the pill and i smoke. anyway, she gave me a referral to a neurologist and ordered a CT scan. all of it should take a couple of weeks.

i'm very scared about the whole thing. more scared than i've ever been in my life. during the whole thing, and after, i don't know that i've ever been so afraid. i just keep thinking, "i'm 28 years old. this should not be happening to me." so i'll call the neurologist in the morning and make an appointment. hopefully, everything will be okay.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Mar. 13, 2006

6:06 AM
oh how i hate singing birds in the morning! fuck you bird!!!

and...

fuck you george bush.

Friday, Mar. 10, 2006

6:00 AM
just now i dreamed i was on an elevator to see mittens. people kept getting on the elevator and pushing the "door open" button to let me people on. that's sort of how it is in real life anywaay.

fuck you george bush.

Friday, Mar. 10, 2006

5:58 AM
i love watching oscar look at things outside the window. he looks so cute while he sits on the heater with his tail hanging down.

fuck you george bush.

Friday, Mar. 10, 2006

7:05 PM
oooh, i'm starving.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Mar. 08, 2006

8:21 PM
i am so excited about having gone to the car wash this afternoon!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 07, 2006

5:47 PM
i went to the car wash. i'd forgotten that my car is black. i guess i thought it was sort of gray.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 07, 2006

5:26 PM
when i was waking up this morning, there were birds singing. i hate the sounds of birds singing while i'm trying to sleep! i know i complain at least 3 times every summer about birds singing outside my window in the middle of the night. i hate those birds that sing at night.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 07, 2006

5:25 PM
in the two weeks since i signed up for the "keep the change" program with bank of america, i've already saved $10. this is awesome!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Mar. 07, 2006

6:18 PM
i had two peices of valentine's day candy left. i just ate one. but where did the other one go?

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 28, 2006

9:15 PM
my skin is so dry and itchy. it's never felt this gross before.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 27, 2006

6:29 PM
i'm upset. all of mittenman's friends have known each other for years and years but i haven't known any of them more than a few days. i just end up feeling even more lost and lonely when i'm around them. i know it's so frustrating to mittens because he needs time to be around them but when i'm with them, i just end up being even more withdrawn. i used to be so friendly and nice and easy to be around, but i'm not like that anymore. when i think i AM being that way, the whole situation just ends being awkward and i just end up embarrassed and even more self-loathing than i'd been before.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 27, 2006

9:12 PM
it's going to be very cold here this week. i'm ready for the spring and the mild, new england summers. i'm ready for it to only get up to 95 degrees. won't that be heaven!?

fuck you george bush.

Sunday, Feb. 26, 2006

4:35 PM
i love when a cat sits next to me and watches what i'm doing. that makes me so warm and fuzzy.

fuck you george bush.

Friday, Feb. 24, 2006

9:18 PM
i've been emailing with my cousin who i love so much. she was telling me about the old house she and her husband bought. i told her how i love old houses and how the house i grew up in had this old water heater that would sometimes gurgle. sometimes they were small gurgles and other times they were so loud. i loved those gurgles. i was very unhappy when we got the new water heater.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 23, 2006

6:58 PM
the easiest section to fill out on this is the part about who will make decisions for me and how much life support i want. the hardest parts are about how comfortable i want to be, how i want people to treat me and what i want my loved ones to know. that last one is the hardest of all.

i can't stop thinking about how i had to watch josh die and how there will be other people i'll have to watch die in the future. i haven't had to deal with that for a long time.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 23, 2006

5:58 PM
okay, tonight i'm going to fill out my living will. get ready for me to cry a whole bunch.

now i'll have some chicken broth.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 23, 2006

5:16 PM
there was a story on the news about a stomach virus in salem, new hampshire. i met a girl this weekend who'd been to the newbury comics in salem, new hampshire. i bet that's who i got this stomach thing from!

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 23, 2006

11:43 AM
i've been able to keep some water down today. i nearly went to the hospital last night as i felt so awful. i still feel awful.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 23, 2006

4:35 AM
i'm still really sick and throwing up everything. i'm going to try to go to the doctor in the morning. i've got such a headache but can't keep any water down. there's also been a small tiny bit of blood in it but i looked it up and it said that can happen if you're vomiting a lot which is the case with me.

oh my head.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 23, 2006

4:37 PM
i just threw up everywhere.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Feb. 22, 2006

2:27 PM
i guess i had always thought the cats spent their days sleepying in the bed. over the past two weeks, i've learned this is not true. they spend most of the days sleepying on the couch. that's sort of nice.

i'm going to get in the shower and then go for a walk and do the shopping. i've had a headache and upset stomach all day. nevermind what the pizza i ate yesterday did to me.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Feb. 22, 2006

8:09 AM
guess what! i have cocoa crispies. that's what i'm going to have for breakfast.

i need to buy a curtain rod or two today. maybe even three.

i think while jobeth is here i'll finally go get my tattoo i've been thinking about. i just want it to be an outline of the state of oklahoma on the inside of my arm. it has to be somewhere hidden because we can't have them at work. also, i don't want kids asking me about them all the time. given the way jobeth was talking last night, she might get the same thing.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Feb. 22, 2006

9:46 PM
i made the curtain for the hall closet and got the baseboards in the living room painted. tomorrow i need to finish the baseboards and make the living room curtain maybe. i need to maybe do the laundry and the dishes. that sounds like so much stuff. i'm still so run down from being sick. i still have a cough like you wouldn't believe. now, i'm going to curl up and get ready for bed. i should also maybe do some cooking tomorrow. is tomorrow really wednesday already? maybe we'll get 10 feet of snow monday night so i still won't have to go back (doubt it).

the olympics just made me cry, by the way. when that italian won the gold metal over those asshole americans, it just made me cry and cry. how happy he was.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

5:12 PM
now that i have my new cell phone, i'm going to sit in bed, eat some valentine's day candy, drink a cherry 7-up and play some majong. hooray. jobeth, please call me soon.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

3:05 PM
hi. my new phone number is 617-538-8879. white power.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

11:50 AM
when did i start finding tough guys so attractive? that's why i love mittenman, you know. only, he just looks tough. the moment he opens his mouth, you can tell he's just a big pussy cat.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

11:45 AM
oooh, my new cell phone is here and charging. isn't this exciting. i'm going to read the manual now.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

7:19 AM
last night i got yelled at by mittenman. we were in the car and i was singing that song, "you say tomato, i say tomato..." but i was singing:

you say potatos,
i say potatos,
you say tomatos,
i say tomatos

as we got out of the car, mittenman said, "THERE'S NO S!" i said, "i didn't think you'd ever get upset about that." he said, "i just don't want you to sing it wrong." i said, "i've always thought singing stuf wrong was part of my charm." i guess not.

he also got mad at me when i changed the background on his computer. that skull with eyes kept staring at me. he didn't yell at me though.

i bet benicio wouldn't yell at me for those silly things.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

7:08 AM
i would LOVE to have more dreams of sleeping with benicio del toro.

seriously, he's my dream man. look how tough he is. like, he could really fuck someone up. and he's so tall. i love that. and i love his mumbley voice. i get so giddy and giggly about him. isn't that ridiculous!? maybe someday he and i will be like tom cruise and katie holmes. without the breakup and scientiology. okay, actually, just imagine me and benicio del toro in that time when katie homles was talking about how she used to dream about marrying tom cruise. that's all we and they would have in common. quick, help me think of a single word for our two first names. jodicio.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 21, 2006

5:54 PM
when i was in 2nd grade and had my first celebraty crush on david byrne, i didn't know how dark he was. i just knew the music in stop making sense made me want to dance all night. i think i love him even more now that i know how bleak his world view is. swoon...

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 20, 2006

12:05 PM
things i need to do this week while i'm off work:

finish cleaning house
make curtains for hallway door
paint baseboards
laundry
pick up art supplies
buy sewing machine(?)
finish edjj stuff
stop being sick
catch up on work stuff like making some transcripts and doing the attendence
maybe start at the gym again (if i'm feeling better)
rest as much as possible and enjoy my time off

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 20, 2006

11:57 AM
i think the next cat i get should be orange and stripey and i'll call him meow mix.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 20, 2006

9:55 AM
i'm still sick.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 20, 2006

1:56 PM
ooh, my new pink cell phone will be here tuesday night and my new phone number is here. it's a 617 number because i live in the big, scary city now. i'd rather have a 405 number.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Feb. 18, 2006

7:49 AM
oh mittenman is so nice and patient with me while i am sick. how lucky i am.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Feb. 18, 2006

8:25 PM
okay, i never use my credit card for anything, but today i couldn't help it. i desparately need a new cell phone. the outside screen on mine that shows the number for who is calling stopped working about a month and a half ago. then the inside screen stopped working tonight. i have to have that screen because i use my cell phone as my morning alarm and i can't set it without that screen.

i was looking around on the cingular website for a phone i might like. i'm not that picky, but i hate the silver, metal looking phones. why can't they just make them in lots of matte colors, like turquoise and maybe cyan and stuff. i'd see the add for this

and thought about it but didn't want to pay $200 for it. that's a lot of money. like, enough for me to pay almost all of the cable, internet, gas, electric and cell phone for a month. enough to buy the back tires i need for my car. enough to feed me for one month. enough to fill all my prescriptions for three months.

it came with a $50 mail in rebate, which is good. and i reduced my minutes because i don't really talk on the phone that much now that mittenman and i live in the same city. so in the end, i think i did the right thing. i got what i wanted and can't wait to show it off. not that mittenman will care, but still, it's nice for me to have something i like. plus, my raise should be coming in very soon so then i can get all the stuff i need with that.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 16, 2006

11:16 AM
i'm ready to go back to work. overall, i'm feeling better but my throat is still killing me. the dr. says i don't have strep, i have the flu. either way, i've got to go back to work tomorrow.

daytime tv is so boring, no matter how much good stuff is on it. i'm tired of this bed. quick, somebody get me some chloraseptic spray.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 16, 2006

8:53 PM
i'm already tired of being in bed. and i have at least one more day of it. normally, i'd be more than happy to take a few days off, but i've got to get back to work and teach those kids their math. they must pass the mcas. i'd be so happy if a few of them did. especially some of the kids who've been with us for so long.

now, i'm going to watch frontline talk about meth use and how it "spiralled out of control." happy valentine's day to you, too.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 14, 2006

7:41 PM
i'm so excited. jobeth will be here from june 29th-july 4th.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 14, 2006

2:59 PM
i hate babies.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 14, 2006

2:14 PM
i'm so sick.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 14, 2006

9:13 PM
mittenman found me out about tomorrow. but he bought me some candy. and on one of the boxes he put it was from mittens. that made me feel a little better.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 13, 2006

6:03 PM
okay, so even though i didn't want to make like valentine's day was a big deal, i am forced to admit that i'm unhappy with mittenman for having band practice tuesday night. even one of the guys in the band wanted to cancel it but mittenman still said no.

instead, we're going to get taco baskets at the mexican restaurent across the street tonight. and i'm sick, so there will be no valentine's day love. my throat is killing me.

also, i'm going in to work tomorrow morning and then taking off tomorrow afternoon and wednesday. then, i have all of next week off. it will be awesome.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 13, 2006

1:29 PM
i just openned a new savings account (hooray) and i'm signing up for the bank of america "keep the change" service in which they will match the amount you transfer through purchaes 100% for the first three months and then 5% after that up to $250 each year. i'm just excited to be putting money back again.

my raise should be here in the next 6 weeks and march is a 3 paycheck month. won't that be nice.

you should see this cute cat sitting next to me. and i have all of next week off work.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 13, 2006

12:45 PM
i'm sick. i'm a big baby when i'm sick. i went to the doctor and he jabbed me in the throat 4 times. the first test came back negative, so i don't have laryngitus. then he did a strep test and it takes a day for the results to come back. he was so nice and said he'd call in the prescription if it's positive.

there was no school today anyway because of the snow. i had to dig my car out of the snow. the cold air burned my throat and lungs so. then, when i returned home, the asshole across the street who won't let anyone park in front of his house was parked in the spot i'd spent 30 minutes shovelling! i beeped a few times and he came out and moved. can you believe the nerve of that guy!

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Feb. 13, 2006

5:45 PM
i would like to watch "fast, cheap and out of control," but i have not cigarettes.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 09, 2006

5:40 PM
my new favorite joke to make is about the advertisement for the movie "ransom" staring mellllllll gibson. but instead of saying, "give me back my son," i say, "give me back my cat." for some reason, the whole thing is very funny.

sometimes when i can't sleepy at night, i put raoul on top of mittenman and say, "here's a cat for you." mittenman and his family think it's okay to wake people up. i and my family do not. isn't that a strange thing?

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 09, 2006

5:33 PM
this weekend i've got to get the white stripes albums and that talking heads album from mittenman this weekend.

mittenman is so nice. even though he's not into valentine's day at all, he still wishes me a happy valentine's day because it makes me happy. isn't that thoughtful of him?

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 09, 2006

6:16 PM
chili dogs are so delicious. so are cheese tots. i wish i could have gone to sonic for them. even checkers would have worked!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Feb. 07, 2006

3:56 PM
i wish mittenman would move to oklahoma city.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Feb. 04, 2006

3:53 PM
i slept with earplugs last night and this is the first saturday i haven't been complete exhausted since i moved here.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Feb. 04, 2006

3:46 PM
how did bobsledding somehow become affliated with nascar? when i was younger i wanted to be a bobsleder. i thought that would be so neat to drive that little car on blades. sadly, i crash everytime i try sledding.

the passenger side headlight is out on my car! i spent an hour trying to figure out how to change it. i gave up and looked on the internet for tips. everyone says it's really hard and that you've got to take the battery out. i'll ask them next time i get an oil change.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Feb. 04, 2006

5:54 PM
dear francesca at willow laboratories in lynn, ma;

thank you for being nice to me while i almost cried and had a fit when you were taking my blood. you were so gentle, i didn't even feel the needle go into my skin. you we so good at finding the vein that i have only a bruise smaller than a pencil eraser. i've never felt like anyone's actually a blessing to me, but you certainly were.

best wishes,
jodie

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 02, 2006

9:04 AM
i slept late this morning. now i'm going to the doctor. then, i'm going to work. if i wanted, i could call and say i'm still not feeling well and that i won't make it to work after all. that would be so nice.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Feb. 02, 2006

4:31 PM
mittenman brought his gbh cds to me to burn. swoon...

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Feb. 01, 2006

4:21 PM
how cool am i!? i got an email from dan savage!

you see, in the last column, he wrote of how he fantasizes about daniel v. from project runway. then, this:

On Jan 31, 2006, at 6:22 PM, Jodie wrote:
oh dan, i love daniel v., too. what will we do if he gets kicked off!?
jodie

then he wrote back:

Savage Love wrote:
> we'll RIOT! that's what!!!
>
> dan


how cool am i?


fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Feb. 01, 2006

9:34 PM
i cannot deny it any longer. i'm rooting for daniel v. or nick on project runway.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Jan. 31, 2006

9:11 PM
is it wrong of me to put pressure on mittenman to quit smoking? i'm very worried about his health. i'd only like for him to cut back.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Jan. 31, 2006

6:08 PM
i'm supposed to write a card for this kid who's leaving. i still haven't been able to find words for how sad i am.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 30, 2006

5:55 PM
mittenman! can you believe this guy?! he told me i'm supposed to say "dreamt" instead of "dreamed." he said that "dreamed" is wrong! cna you believe that bullshit.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 30, 2006

8:54 PM
for too long, i've been not telling people how i feel about them. i don't mean that i'm don't go around telling people all the awful things they are, because i would never do that. but i don't tell people enough when i care about them.

next week a student who's been with us since the beginning of the year will be leaving. i truly love this young man and have so much hope for him. he's commit very, very, very serious sex offenses multiple times, but in the past few months, he has made a commitment to treatment and to making a life for himself. it's hard, because i never thought i'd be able to care about my students who committed sex offense. i've learned so much about myself from him and about how i feel about and interact with other people. i can't even put into words the hope i have for this guy. i'm scared, too, that i'll be let down in the end.

anyway, before he leaves i need to tell him how i feel. he has no family and no friends. he's been in dys for 5 years. i don't feel like i owe it to him to tell him how much i hope for him, but i feel like i owe it to myself. i've never felt that way about anything before.

now i'm going to take a really big risk. i keep thinking about all the people i never been able to tell things to that i needed to tell. i can't keep doing that because it doesn't feel good. it's a scary feeling, but i can't keep living with regrets like i have been.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Jan. 25, 2006

6:34 PM
it's peanut butter jelly time all week at work.




fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Jan. 25, 2006

7:42 PM
this fucking asshole teacher! all i did was ask for a list of material covered and grades for students who've gone to their programs. two of the students didn't really do a lot of classwork even though they somehow managed to earn ALL their points for doing their classwork in his class while they were with us. now, the sheet he gave me just says, "do not have any work for this student." no material covered while they were with us is listed and no grade is given.

i pass around these sheets about once every two weeks. and every time i pass them around, i have to deal with this asshole guy. either he can't remember who a student we had for 3 months is or he just gives me the chapter numbers he has covered. chapter numbers don't do me any good and i shouldn't have to go and look up the chapter s. i've told him over and over again i want the content standards to put on the transcripts. it's really frustrating.

he also never looks at the notes at the bottom of the schedule i pass out to each of the teachers every day. i wouldn't put those notes there if they didn't need to be there. this morning, he missed a meeting we have EVERY WEEK. not only did we walk by his room and say, "okay, we're going to the meeting," but there was also a note saying we would be meeting with the staff. when i asked him what happened to him, he said, "you said yesterday jeff and i don't have to go to the teacher meeting." THAT WASN'T EVEN THE SAME MEETING!!! then, he looked at the sheet and said, "oh, there it is, 'meeting with staff this morning.'"

he's going down to another unit to see if he wants to work down there. please, let him go!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Jan. 24, 2006

6:56 PM
oh, i'm dying for a hot dog from the hot dog express machine!

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

6:44 PM
i found one of my students on myspace.com and i can't tell anyone about it because it would be illegal!!!

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

6:42 PM
look what i got:

"This exclusive collection contains 50 of the scariest 'nail-biters,' all digitally restored and remastered for over 60 hours of good scary fun! Featuring; Boris Karloff, Bela Lugosi, Lon Chaney, Vincent Price, Christopher Lee, Barbara Steel and more! Night of the Living Dead Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde Nosferatu The House on Haunted Hill The Wasp Woman The Crawling Eyes And Much More, Too Many to List! Compiled on 5 DVDs."

don't hate.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

6:40 PM
i'm going to order that hot dog express on my next paycheck!

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

6:31 PM
mittenman is supposed to be on his way to my house. but i just happened to log in on myspace.com and guess who was there!

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

6:18 PM
ohhhh. i want this:



fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

4:07 PM
okay, i admit it. i love ordering office supplies.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 23, 2006

7:58 PM
i hate the sound of disel trucks. they are so loud. there's one outside my apartment right now. how that rumbling annoys me.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 19, 2006

7:49 PM
i'm so sad. i'm can't go to bermuda. the airline schedule required shuttling between laguardia and newark which is expensive. i'm so sad.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 19, 2006

7:19 PM
okay, i think i'm going to get to go. this is so exciting.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 19, 2006

6:44 PM
i am so excited that i won't be feeling like i'm going to throw up all the time. and i'm excited that rash will soon be gone. and i'm excited i'm not ovulating and won't have children.

also, i'm trying to plan a trip to see the old roomate who is now living in bermuda. my dad can get me tickets and everything but my passport is expired. does anyone know the travel rules for getting in and out of bermuda?

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 19, 2006

3:58 PM
i'm going to get my hydrocortizone cream now!

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 19, 2006

3:10 PM
i went to the doctor. she was awesome and did my full exam. i'm going to switch from that awful shot for birth control to seasonale as i'm so scared of shots. i'm supposed to go back for all the blood work and to get a tetnis shot (yikes) some time next month. i really don't want to do that.

she says my irregular periods and moodiness are likely caused by polycystic ovary syndrome and that i shouldn't really worry about it unless i want to have kids. i told her that i never wanted them and she said i shouldn't worry at all. she gave me some information and it sounds exactly like all the symptoms i've had: irregular periods; increased growth of hair on the face, chest, stomach, or toes; acne; pelvic pain; weight gain or obesity, usually carrying extra weight around the waist (exactly where i carry all my extra weight). the info also said you can have high levels of androgens which may affect my behavior and muscule development. all of it should be treated by me going back on the pill which i am looking forward to very much. she said as long as i don't want kids, i shouldn't worry. so i won't.

this does confirm my lifelong certainty that there are things wrong with my privates, you know. that statement, of course, may be far more revealing than i intend it to be. i am certian, though, that anything people read into it is true.

she thinks my upset stomach is because of my acid reflux disease. and she put me back on the prevaid. i started getting really sick after eating gobs of shellfish at mittenman's family christmas dinner which she says may have retriggered the problem. i think she's right as i have started getting indigestion much more lately.

she also gave me a referral to a psychiatrist who i'm to see on feb. 2 at 10:00. and she gave me a cream for the rash. mittenman is so grossed out about hear about it i'm worried he'll soon never want to touch me again.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 19, 2006

7:50 PM
i realized today that i really like teaching math. yay!

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Jan. 18, 2006

7:29 PM
it's 7:30. i'm in the bed. how exciting.

i love this show "reno 911," but how i hate when they crash their car in the opening segment.

i worry i'm often like wiegel. i'm sort of dumb like she is. and i do so love my cats.

mittenman put a playlist on my ipod. it's called mittenmix. isn't that cute?

tomorrow is the doctor. i have it written on the calendar at school. a kid said, "who is dr. 1:00?" i told him that's when i have an appointment for.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Jan. 18, 2006

6:42 PM
i was out for a walk. it was so windy on the beach. then, it lightly rained. not just rain, little chunks of ice. i was still 15 minutes from the car. i ran for a while. i was soaked.

later, i called mittenman to tell him what had happened. he called that stuff hail. that wasn't hail, i'll have you know. i told mittenman's family about the hail we get in oklahoma and how that's real hail. when they have car sales because of hail damage, that's real hail.

how i miss that scary spring weather.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Jan. 18, 2006

8:27 PM
jobess will be here at the end of june. i think i've got that week off, jo. we'll go to the beach and look so dark and tan. well, she will, i'll look like a raccoon. i've got two bottles of sunblock waiting for me. i must keep getting ready for my swim suit. my $80 swimsuit that i got for $15. like you needed me to tell you that again.

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Jan. 17, 2006

8:25 PM
i got lots of compliments on my pants from the students today. that worries me. a kid told me i need to loose about 10 lbs so i told him he needs to get a hair cut. yes!

fuck you george bush.

Tuesday, Jan. 17, 2006

7:45 PM
i now have a tv in the bedroom and a tv in the living room. i can only think of bad things that can happen as a result of this. i imagine coming home now and being in bed at 7:30, dozing off at 8:00 and then shutting the tv at 10:00. when did i become such a home body? i need to make some friends.

i haven't told mittenman yet, but on feb 9, we've got to go to the art opening of work by DYS students. i think we'll drop in, say hello to the art teacher and then go home. i'm usually so exhausted on fridays. hopefully, we can get some people to go.

mittenman's cat is getting old. his mom keeps talking about how she's going to die. i keep thinking about how raoul's going to die. he's got his fourth birthday coming up in march. that gives me 7-11 more years left with him. oscar is about the same age, though i don't expect him to live as long and i think i'll be okay when he dies. but when raoul dies, i don't know what i'll do. i think have him creamated so he can sit on top of the fridge just like my dogs did when i was growing up. and oscar will be with him up there, too.

my hips have been killing me in this cold weather. i don't know what shoes i'll be able to wear tomorrow. it's going to be so cold and all the clothes i have left to wear need heals. and my left ankle is hurting again.

i never got rested enough over winter break from work. this long weekend has been amazing and perfect and i think i feel ready to go back. hooray.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 16, 2006

7:08 PM
mittenman often talks in his sleepy. about all different things. he wakes me up and wants to have conversations even though he's still asleepy. one night, he wanted to tell me about how black people aren't going to have anywhere to eat because the cheesecake factory was going to close. he thinks it's okay to wake me up for these conversations.

this morning, he called out, "ow, my penis." i was awake and said, "WHAT?!" and he realized what he'd said. he apoligized. i wonder what would happen if i called out, "oh, my vagina." we're so silly.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Jan. 14, 2006

7:06 PM
my right hand hurts. it feels like what i'd imagine a man's hand would feel if he masturbated for like, 10 hours. it aches and aches.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Jan. 14, 2006

6:46 PM
i'm having a bit of a freakout. i have a dimple in my left cheek. i've always liked this dimple because it's not really a deep dimple and it's only there when i have a really big smile.

but here's what's happened: the dimple has gone from being an indentation to a wrinkle. i actually have my first wrinkle. it's not just one wrinkle, though. it's like, 3 or 4. i thought my first wrinkles would be around my eyes. instead, mine are on my cheek.

i'm only 28. how can i have a wrinkle. when do women normally get wrinkles?

maybe i'll be able to get some respect from that asshole guy at work now. i'm in some trouble with my boss right now because of him. i didn't check the book before signing his time card and he missed a total of about 8 hours of work over 10 days. anyway, my boss called me while i was in shirley yesterday because of it. i don't think she's mad at me. you can usually tell by her tone. i'm going to tell her the truth, though, that i've been reluctant to say anything to him because of the shit that happened last time. so i'm just going to tell my boss that.

also, there was one time when i asked her to check the book becasue he was leaving half an hour early each day and he left his time card with her. i'd been secretly hoping she'd catch it then so i wouldn't have to deal with it.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Jan. 14, 2006

6:43 PM
mittenman bought the reissue of remain in light. i can't be burned.

i thought they were above that. i'm very upset because i can't even put it on my ipod. i'm really upset.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Jan. 14, 2006

6:30 PM
i was in the car with tina yesterday complaining about the bras they sell at target and how the highest they go up to is a 42b when i need a 42d. i said, "who wears a 42b?" and she said, "i do." and i said, "well, i guess you'll do good to shop there."

the cable guy came and put the tv in the bedroom. i couldn't understand half of what he said as he had a strong puerto rico accent. i'm the only one who loves that accent. the way the say "jew" instead of "you." i love that.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Jan. 14, 2006

6:02 PM
the woman at my job who i'm sort of friends with and i went for our last day of dys training. we learned how to restrain kids. i threw her on the floor. i didn't mean to and i used very little force. i'm very strong you see, thanks to the gym and thanks to these 25 extra lbs i can't seem to get rid of. the trainer told me to be very careful. tina and i laughed about how she's going to warn kids about me when they go from her unit to my unit. i'm trying to talk her into coming up to teach on my unit next school year when that asshole doesn't come back.

i told the trainer lady i wasn't comfortable being restrained by two strange women in front of a group of men. i told her, "if there weren't a bunch of other men, i'd be fine with it, but i'm not comfortable having two women hold me down in front of a bunch of men." she thanked me and seemed really happy that i made that clear. see, i'm no post-feminist, zanti, just like you. and one of my greatest concerns is the sexualization of violence. and i could tell all those men were totally getting off on that in public. what a group of assholes. thank god mittenman isn't like that at all. he's amazing.

gordon gano, how i love your voice.

fuck you george bush.

Friday, Jan. 13, 2006

9:59 PM
the corporation that oversees the non-profit i work for is coming to observe on wednesday. i'm going to have to explain why, when we have 3.5 hours per day to plan, the history teacher is just giving the kids questions to answer from the text book. and guess who's going to be getting shit for it? that's right, cat-daddy. i'm feeling a lot of pressure right now.

my left turn signal has started blinking very fast. both on the inside of the car and on the outside.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 12, 2006

7:50 PM
i found my phone. and i was greeted with an amazing phone call from ticktrix who lives right around the corner from my apartment in oklahoma city. i told her how much i miss oklahoma and we laughed about how we know all the same places.

i'm so homesick. i miss knowing my way everywhere and i miss all the shortcuts and tricks to getting around i used to know. i found out the buy-4-less on 23rd and penn is now a walmart 'hood market. we talked about cheap rent (she pays a whopping $250/month and i reminised of paying $350/month).

i'm giddy. and i'm homesick.

oh ticktrix, i forgot to tell you how my mom sent me frozen braum's hambuger patties overnight because i had a hankerin' for them.

i'm still so oklahoma.



fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 12, 2006

7:03 PM
can someone please start calling my phone over and over again. i can't find it and i need to make a phone call. 240-506-5779. email me if you call so i can look in the car.
jodie.martin@comcast.net.

this is really an urgent situation.

fuck you george bush.

Thursday, Jan. 12, 2006

6:11 PM
okay, i just got confirmation that the song "we don't have to take our clothes off to have a good time at night" is sung by a man after all. i don't have to hate men after all.

thank you jobess.

fuck you george bush.

Wednesday, Jan. 11, 2006

7:51 PM
does anyone know, is "what do ya' know?" available as a pod cast. i'd be so happy if it was.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 09, 2006

7:09 PM
i'd always thought that song "we don't have to take our clothes off, to have a good time at night" was sung by a man, and it sort of made me have some respect for me. then, i found out it was a woman and i started hating men all over again.

i got a letter from my dad in the mail today. it said he and his ex-wife got cat scratch fever from their big 18 lb maine coon, joshua. isn't that the strangest thing? and by the way, the fact that my dad and his wife were driving from fl to ga for the holidays shows that my suspicians were founded. how i hate that.

i wanted mittenman to come over and take me to get a taco basket for dinner. instead, he's going home to have burgers. i want to do something nice for him next week, but i don't know what yet.

fuck you george bush.

Monday, Jan. 09, 2006

2:49 PM
i've been dying for indian food. and i had a $25 gift card to whole foods. i bought shampoo, organic cat grass and boxes and boxes of frozen and reheatable indian food. i just ordered coriandor and tamarind chutneys from indian foods company. i should have gotten some tandoori naan. how i love that flat bread.

how i love indian food.

here's the deal with the shampoo. i haven't actually used shampoo since last february. when my hair gets dirty, i use a mixture of baking soda and warm water. when my hair gets greasy, i rinse it with lemon juice. all the stuff in shampoo makes my hair so frizzy. about once each month i dye my hair which gets rid of any buildup the baking soda and lemon juice doesn't.

i know it sounds gross, but really, my hair has never been better. anyway, mittenman and i were discussing our bathing habits and i confessed to him my hair secret. i don't normally talk about it as people just don't understand. he didn't say much but i don't want to gross him out, so i thought i'd better get some shampoo.

so i bought this:

because i used the old roommate's nature's gate once when i had neither baking soda nor lemons and needed to clean. (it was cold and snowy and we lived up a hill). she used a different kind, but it was the same brand.

anyway, i hope mittenman won't be grossed out by me. he wasn't really grossed out before, but still, i want him to think i'm wonderful.

i'm going to take a nap now.

fuck you george bush.

Saturday, Jan. 07, 2006

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